A Piece of Peace Today

As I sit here, at the kitchen table, the house is quiet. The kids are asleep, these are the last few days before our daughter goes back to school, her last year in high school, and then she will go off into the world. Our son is relishing his last few days at home before going back to college in about two weeks for his second year away in Flagstaff. I look out the window and the sky is a brilliant blue filling out around the various shades of green and browns in the leaves of the trees and bushes. I hear a bird chirping, I hear one of the dogs shift her position, and then fall back into a deeper sleep. It is a beautiful day. I have love and peace in my heart. The refrigerator is full and humming. We have food and electricity. I can hear the sprinklers going off somewhere in the backyard. We have running water. My family is all under one roof for a few more days. We have a home. It somehow feels safe and fleeting all at the same time. It is temporal. So I enjoy it now. Gratitude and Peace.

I had a beautiful walk today with my Dad. He has been ill, and is beginning to come back from a bout with the autoimmune illness that lies mostly dormant in his body. It flares up and causes excruciating pain every few years, as it has been doing these past few weeks. We walked to the top of the street and back home. We walked slowly, and talked, catching up, since we haven’t been alone together for the past two or three weeks. We walk arm in arm together for part of the walk, something he couldn't do a few days ago, it hurt so much to lift his arms. We exchange I love you's. This is precious. These days are precious. Each one. Don't forget to stop and take it all in. It is here now. That is what matters.

We walk past the park, we are almost home. The crows are there, walking around, looking for all the world like men dressed up and pacing with their arms behind their back, their heads to the ground, pondering important, absorbing thoughts. They are our audience. They remain quiet.

This is my piece of peace today. May you find yours as well.

Knowing and knowing

One of the paradoxes on my spiritual path has been knowing. Our lives are our spiritual paths. We can look back and see The Hand of God or the Influence of Angels, or whatever you might call it, at various places in our life path, whether we were actively seeking or not at that time. For me, when I began seeking on my spiritual path, actively consciously trying to pay attention much of this has come in the form of knowing, and Knowing. Certain things I Know with a certainty, it is a truth for me. It may or may not be a truth for anyone else, but it is Knowing for me. For example I Know that I am not alone, and yet I also know I am utterly alone when I am on my path, which no other human being occupies and embodies in exactly the same way I do. Both are true simultaneously, thus another paradox. It is okay for me, both these ideas being true simultaneously.

The paradox I keep coming up against, is what I call knowing and Knowing. I went seeking on my spiritual path so I could know more. So I could understand more fully and therefore perhaps evolve and grow more. I have found, after some time of thinking I was getting good at putting information in and learning and therefore knowing, that the more I know, the less teachable I am. If my knowing cup is filled up, then there is nowhere for new information to come in. I put a cover over my knowing cup. For me the trick is to Know that I really know nothing. Therefore I am teachable in the moment. I don't know much of anything, really. I think of young children, how they learn so readily and naturally, like a sponge ready to soak up all kinds of new interesting information and knowledge. I put this new information through my own discernment, and keep what feels really right and true to me, for me, and then I have to remember I really don't know anything. I really Know very little. That is where the magic happens, when we are in awe and wonder at all that there is before us. When we are open to learning we are like a child, we are joyful and excited and hungry for more and we naturally evolve and grow. When we begin to know everything, we interrupt our natural evolution. So, I Know this, I don't know much!!

What do you know? I would love to hear!

Love and Joy Vibration

Okay, so I am thinking if you have found this blog, you are likely already in the love, joy vibration. That's great, living here has its own benefits and rewards. Not living in drama, trauma and stress being the biggies to me. That said, it is not without challenges. One which seems to be coming up for many people right now, would be seeing others we care about who are not yet living in the love, joy vibration. It is difficult to be close to someone and watch their suffering, and not be able to 'guide' them into the energy. Well, the truth of the matter is that while we cannot help anyone make the actual choice to transition into the love, joy vibration, we can assist them, in some ways. The first way is to totally love them, and release them to their own evolution. Give them a gigantic energetic hug and love them up and allow them the dignity of finding their own way. If we try to do this for/with someone on our schedule or agenda, it will not work and can actually prolong the agony for them, as they will resist your overtures into the vibration, as they know they need to do this themselves, or they will lean on you, to assist them, which will actually not benefit either of you. It will keep them more comfortable in the uncomfortable energies of drama, trauma and stress, and also sap you of your energies and keep you from doing the work you are here to do. This is where Divine Free WIll comes in. Each and every soul must chose on their own to come into the new vibration. By some estimations, only 10% of the world's population is existing in the love, joy vibration. That means that we all know quite a few people who are making their way "in the mix".

So we are not better than anyone else who may not have yet found their way into these energies. No rational person would chose to not migrate into the love, joy vibration, it is their woundedness and fears which keep them from making this transition. The second thing we can do to be of assistance to our dear friends and family who are on the fence about coming into this energy is to do our own work, to be the best "me" you can be. Pay attention, do what comes up immediate and situational, and move through whatever comes up to the best of your abilities. Asking for assistance as you go. How does this help those who are not yet in this energy? Well, it is a "we" thing after all, and the better we are at living in this place, the better we love one another and ourselves, the more attractive we are and the energy is and the more accessible we are and the energy is, prompting friends and family members to wonder and sometimes ask, "What is it you are doing differently than me?", "You seem so happy." and "Not much seems to bother you". This is the energetic equivalent to us saying, "Come on in, the water's fine."

This is all well and good, but for some of us, there will be a particular individual, friend or family member who we will find we have a difficult time releasing to their own evolution. This happens when we are especially bound with that person, and it feels as though we may have agreed to assist one another into these energies in some way, shape or form, which most of us are not conscious of, but we are conscious of the feeling of leaving someone behind, or letting them down. In these cases, it is especially important that we are able to love, love, love the person, clearly letting them know we are there for them, because they may come along any day now, and then of course, release them. Sometimes they are resisting us and our own well intended energies to assist them, which is exactly what is blocking their ability to see the forest right in front of them. In this way, we can be of the most assistance by getting out of our own way, and their way as well.

So what are the keys to the kingdom? Love, Love, Love. Wow! The Beatles had it right all those years ago! :)

I invite you to share with me any stories you have of finding your way into the love, joy vibration, and or bearing witness to other's doing the same, or of course the experience of standing on the sidelines as a dear soldier finds his or her own way through the drama, trauma and stress.

Sending you Love and Blessings, Dear Ones as you make your way through the energies!

Here we go!

Every Blog has to start somewhere, so I am beginning here. I look forward to having this opportunity to share the events which are happening in my world, and hopefully to hear back from some of you about your path.

I am a happily married, 40 something mother of two adult children. I am blessed with a loving family and a circle of very special friends, all at varying places upon their path. After all, this is a marathon, not a sprint, and the finish line means we are done for now. So I am content to slow down and enjoy the ride of varying experiences and interesting people. I guess if you have found my blog, it is likely that we might have some things in common, and we might indeed walk side by side for a time. I believe that we are all on our spiritual path together, and those who we are close to and who we interact with on a regular basis can have a great influence upon our path. It is a "we" thing, none of us does this alone, and maybe the most successful among us do this by connecting often with others. We are all doing this together, so I am looking forward to hearing from you and getting to experience some of your stories, all the better to assist us all on our journey.

At this point in my life, our children are beginning to leave the nest, or even to be here less and less, and/or need less of my time and attention on a regular basis, which has freed me up considerably to try this blog on for size now. How will it be sharing together in this space and time? I am not sure, but I am excited to see where it will lead us all.

Much of my spiritual growth has come from observing and being obeserved. I find my children are very good at holding me accountable, to be sure that I am walking in integrity, that my actions match my words. They have been some of my best teachers. I have found that I prefer to learn gently and have nice, loving experiences (don't we all?), but I have found that life is sometimes messy and is also about learning what not to do, and how to proceed even in the face of challenges. We may all be spiritual beings having a human experience, but I am here and now human, and by choice learning and growing as I go, as I hope each of you is as well.

I work with Indigo's (if you have questions about Indigo's let me know, this might be an interesting topic for another posting) and I seem to attract people who are on their spiritual path and would like some assistance along the way. I don't know if identifying a person as an Indigo is helpful or not, although many of us have some similar attributes, and it is often helpful for us to see ourselves in one another, and thus learn more about ourselves. I am interested in being of assistance to others on their path, as well as paying attention along my own. The rewards for paying attention have been great, so far. I find more peace in my heart, and joy in my life. The further I go the less drama, trauma and stress present themselves. When they do, I find myself looking inside, rather than out, to see what is happening within me that this event or person is getting my attention so strongly. I do not always figure the situation out, but often over time there will be clarity, healing and growth. I admit, I have used a strong editing hand in my life. I would say I have learned a great deal about setting healthy boundaries, which is a must on any spiritual path. We have a limited amount of time, attention and energy in any given day, and ultimately in each of our lives. It feels important to me to focus upon those who are available (ready, willing and able) to move forward. If there are too many people in your life that are draining you of your energy, that is something which bears looking at. Does that mean that we only surround ourselves with those who give to us? Of couse not!! Otherwise, how would we ever be mothers, fathers, daughters, sons, friends? With each person in our life, there should be a give and a take, and if we are talking about our children or our parents, there will be times when the take WAAAAY out-weighs the "give", unless you realize the "give" is there in the miracle of life. In the miracle of being blessed and honored to be raised by someone, in the miracle of bearing witness to the maturation of a human by being present to parent, in the miracle of sharing life together.. So, this too is a topic for another day, I guess. I am hoping that your comments will assist me to find what is interesting to you, dear readers, so that we may better move along this path together.

It seems to me my spiritual growth happens as I am living my life, being the best I can be on any given day. I go about my day, my "chop wood, carry water", looks more like go to the grocery store and Target, make dinner, do the dishes, pick up after people, and spend time with friends and family. So, does a spiritual life really unfold in a normal, ordinary life? I believe the answer is YES! I am a living example, as are many of my friends and family.

I have tried going to church on a regular basis, when our children were younger, we spend a number of years immersed in a lovely church family. There were many gifts there, and it was a great place for us to be at that time, and it is indeed a great place for many to be. For me, now, I find I have a strong Judeo-Christian background, but I also have a strong spiritual/mystical side, which is undeniable and alive, and as such I have not found an institution which matches my Spiritual Path at this particular time. It feels to me that I am meant to forge ahead, finding my own way, getting information from many different schools of thought and Spiritual Truths. We are each our own highest authority for what is a match for us. I honor each one of you your choice, as I hope each of you will honor mine. I encourage you to bounce experiences against your own discernment, your own inner knowing, and keep what feels right, and release those things which are not a match for you. I do not pretend to know anything, other that what feels right to me at this particular time on my path. I can guarantee one thing, much of what make sense to me today will likely change. As uncomfortable as that is to me, change is a healthy part of a spiritual path, releasing my attachment to "knowing" anything. If I think I know something, it is a reminder that I have more to learn in that area. So, I will do my best to have an open mind and heart and to proceed by releasing judgment as it comes up and moving towards wholeness and healing, and sharing with you, my experiences along the way. So for now, this is my first reflection from my path, hopefully in a long line of many to follow. This is one interesting journey.